.melissa.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

5:58:00 PM

"People have a choice... You didn't have to fall in love with me"

No, my dear. We don't choose who we fall in love with. That's what's so beautiful about love... And it's also what's so terrifying about it. Maybe you just don't know what love is. Or maybe now, you finally do.

I don't know if I should be angry with you, or if I should empathize.

I have no right to judge who you are now, or even who you were then. But what I do know is that someone I care a lot about has been hurt. And honestly, I don't take kindly to that. It may or may not have been intentional, either way, feelings were hurt.

On the other hand, I do feel your pain. Its not easy being where you are now. Wandering in limbo. Unsure of whether or not what you're doing is right or wrong. Falling in love. Falling out of love.

I've been through that and I know it's difficult. When I was at that stage of my life, I remember love being like a huge roller coaster ride. Exhilarating joy, overwhelming fear... Its hard knowing when one emotion stops and the other starts.

I am not an expert when it comes to that particular emotion, but trust me on one thing. Love doesn't get easier. Ever. But you WILL mellow... And someday, you'll learn to deal with all the havoc that love can and will bring into your once mundane life. That's when you know you're ready.

Till that day comes. Take your time. The world is your oyster (bloody cliche, but oh so true). Spend this time learning to love yourself, cuz if there's one thing I've learnt from my failed relationships, its that no one can love you if you don't love yourself.

And to you.

Yes you.

Keep your chin up, and look forward. You were given eyes in the FRONT of your head for a reason, Sweets. You know you're loved by your family and your (best) friends just the way you are. Smile...

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